Letter to the child in my heart

My other me,

I know you are sad. I know that your smile is swept away by the cruelty and the coldness arround you. I know that you can’t laugh like you used to. I believe you grew up. I grew up too. I have reached the apex of not being what i want. But it’s ok. I am fine. I am trying to reinvent your other self. It is hard, but i have hope. Some say that you just can’t have everything. I have love. You have love. You should start  smile again. I smile like i never did. I hope you gave me your forgiveness. You were screaming inside my heart to let you out, but i didn’t. I continued crying and killing you. Thank God you are immortal. Cause i believe you are. I want you to come out from the shelter i put you in and smile again. I need you to feel alive. Please come out and light up my world. Make my soul full of joy and acceptance. Make me better. Make me love the world again, even if the world doesn’t love me. Please! I promise not to break our agreement and i promise i won’t cry again. Never! You have my word!

With love,

the one you used to know …